On My Leaving

A long time ago, I started up at STS again with the promise to myself that I would not repeat the past: that I would not become a hopeless addict that could not tell the fantasy world I helped create take precedence over the real world that I actually live in. If I felt that this was an issue, or that I wasn't enjoying it anymore, I would simply leave.

And that's precisely what I'm doing right now.

I've played a lot of characters since then: Faedinal Dainori, Darq Tiamat, Camill, Dizaun Cadsane and his various family members, Ferrus Orhimmel, Damhan and numerous NPCs. And I have enjoyed them, to a point. But what I'm finding is that I'm falling in to old patterns. I sit in front of the computer far more than I enjoy my life off of it. I cancel on time with friends to spend time here. That's not the person I want to be, growing old while I sit in my prison cell of a room. As a young man, I have little time to enjoy my youth. It is time to stop acting like the child I was.

The reason I'm leaving now is that the Dragon RP showed me something about the time I spend here. What should have been a fun, interesting event, with lots of opportunity to RP with people I rarely get to, and furthered the story and plot of not only my characters, but everyone else's, and the very town... became something I began to regard as a nuissance. And it took me a while to figure out why. I had become intensely insular. I had fallen into that same trap where I was addicted to a world I didn't live in, and was peeved that other people would 'dare' to interact with it to.

So I quit. Because I think this is best for me, and best for the people who are around me. I feel relieved, if anything, and I hope that for the most part, we can depart as friends -- despite my rather private manner.

That said, I also have a warning to distribute. If I hear anyone blaming someone else for my departure; any bullying and villainizing, I won't hesitate to refer them back to this post. This was my decision. I consulted with no one. No one asked me to leave. I quite literally woke up and decided it was time. And if I do catch word of it, I will also be contacting the Admin. This is a game. It's not real. We're here to enjoy ourselves. So stop acting like children and be the adults most of us are.

Goodbye, and good luck.
~ Bryan Campbell

You'll be missed in the chat. It won't be the same without you there. But you have to do what you feel is best. You know you have my support. Contact me though soon so we can discuss details please. Etherial is feeling a little lost right now.

We'll miss you Dizaun, and I hope you'll return at one point even if its just for a short amount of time. Your characters will always exisit here, so if you ever feel the need to pop in, please do. I understand your need to escape our 'fantasy world', in favour of the real world. I've ditched friends in order to Rp.. and have become so absortbed myself at different points.. that I was becomming dependant on the fantasy world. So..i know kinda what your feeling like.

I hope in your time away, that you get to live your life how you want it to be lived, a nd that you'll stay in touch with us, because private as you may have been, You were a part of what we've created here, and will continue to be. *Hugs*

And I agree completely with the blame throwing. If Anyone is throwing blame around OUT OF CHARACTER, for Dizaun's departure, or any drama that may ensue because of the choice he is making.. Then there will consquensces.

Hope things go your way Dizzy, we'll miss you.
And you better stay in touch (tornapartbylife@hotmail.com) and if you wish for my cell number, contact Terrina.